Let The Flames Begin...

Subject: Let The Flames Begin... June 23rd 2010, 8:27 pm

FFREQUIEM USERS,

Hey Guys! First of all don't mind the title. Just a little something poetic I thought of at the spur of the moment. So before you all start chewing me out for being gone so long, I'll tell you a little about my life these past few months. Then you can feel free to flame me for a little bit until I get angry and blow you all up . Just Kidding!

So I guess I'll start by telling you all what I've been through these past few months. I've been to check on things every few weeks, maybe not signed in, but just stopped by to see. I've texted Rinoa to check on things a few times as well. So even though I haven't been here in physical form, I've had my eyes on all of you for awhile now.

I started College a year ago this month. My first semester was fairly laid back as I got used to classes and the like. In January I started tackling more classes. 23 credit hours of academic courses. They were mostly core classes; Advanced Chemistry, I've been through Calculus I, II, and III now. I'm about to start Differential Equations. I can't count how many English Compositions and World Literatures I've taken (Greek, Roman, Ancient Egypt, etc). Not to mention all of the Laboratory Hours I've put in. I am Majoring In Computer Information Technology. I'm finally about to start taking some of the Programming and Networking Classes affiliated with the Major within the next 6 months. So that's all of my schooling I've been in the past year.

Well I had to pay for school somehow right? College Is EXPENSIVE! So I used one of my many talents to get a FULL paid scholarship to the college I'm going to. I play in the College's band. It's not a Marching Band like in High school. It's more like a traveling Rock Band. I played Guitar, as well as ran the computer systems, lights, and sound equipment for the group. We traveled to 40 different schools in 4 months and performed our same 20 songs in an Awesome combination of rock, jazz, country, and gospel music arranged perfectly in the best playlist. So keep in mind, that in between all of this rehearsals and traveling gigs, I was a full time student. This is what payed for my school.

I also started a new Part Time Job at the Local Movie Theater in town. I get to watch all the new movies for Free (TWILIGHT: ECLIPSE JUNE THE 29th! WHOO!) and it pays for the gas in my NEW car I bought at Easter. So I was going to school, traveling with a band, and working a part-time Job. Talk about being busy and burned out.

It was about this time in my life, that I began to get drained--emotionally, physically, and spiritually...I don't know if any of you are Christians or God-Fearing people. If you are Athiests, I am not trying to convert you, just telling you some background on myself. I wouldn't say I didn't believe in God before this time--but I didn't really care to know more. Well my life was in turmoil. I was traveling, working, studying...It was literally hell for me. I would stay up all night, couldn't sleep--And I was physically in a state of where I didn't know what I wanted to do and I wasn't eating, nor talking to anyone. So I turned to where we all turn when we get like this--God. I joined a church with some guys around my age who played in a Church Praise and Worship Band. I joined the band and now I play Guitar with them, we also travel. LoL. But now it's not because I HAVE TO--its more fulfilling knowing that I'm doing it because I WANT to. So naturally, my life has changed because of my environment changing and adapting to a different lifestyle. I have a new outlook on life, and I think I'm heading in a good direction right now. I'm about to be 20 years old, I have 2 years of college left to get my Masters Degree in Computer Information Technology. I'd say I'm doing good for myself.

This whole time though, the site has suffered in my absence. Not to the point of where OH NO WE CAN'T FUNCTION WITHOUT MORPHEUS! But you guys know the drift--every good thing has a leader. Kuja, Kazuya, and Rinoa have done a remarkable job as "acting" Admins. I congratulate guys on that. But you know the feeling where something is "good" but just not where it needs to be? That's what I mean. So here I am.

So what now you ask? Well I'm still in College, I arranged my schedule for the upcoming fall Semester to where I will only have to go to school 2 days a week, though those 2 days will be from 7 AM till 9 PM. But That means I get to sleep late the other days and get my work done and more computer time. I will still be in the Music Program at the college, but we don't travel in the Fall--and we are getting a new Music Director, so we are subject to change the way the whole program operates. Who knows right? I still go to church, but I am at a crossroads right now and I have taken a break from that band--so I won't be traveling with them for awhile. So I'll be home more than usual.

OH, almost forgot. I went through a bad break up with a girl about 2 years ago. Tore me up from the inside out for nearly a year. I thought I would never get over that girl. She cheated me and done me wrong, and I still loved her for the longest time. Well in February, I met a new girl. Two months later we expressed our feelings, and then a month later she became my girlfriend. So yes--Morpheus has a Girlfriend now. She keeps me in line--and you know, I finally feel I am complete with everything in my life. It's like I'm finally in a place of stability. I hope you all know that feeling someday if you don't already. She is about 4 years older than me though lol. but it's ok, Age is nothing but a number. She is 24 and I'm about to be 20. Funny if you think about it. She's an elementary teacher, already out of College.

So now you know all about where I've been, what I've been doing, and what my life has been like. I hope you guys all forgive my long absence as I searched for myself. I've been contemplating when I would get on here and speak to you all about this--and now I've done it. I won't promise you that I'll be here EVERY SINGLE DAY, But I will try to sign in now every day if possible and if not every other day or so. That's the best I can do right now. If I have to take a prolonged absence again I will tell you ahead of time. And just so you know, probably in 2 weeks I'll be taking a Vacation to TAMPA, FLORIDA to visit my mother whom I haven't seen in about one year. But I'll only be gone for about a week or so but I'm bringing my laptop with me.

So tell me guys, what have I missed in your lives? Tell me all about yourselves.

MorpheusZero

Subject: Re: Let The Flames Begin... June 23rd 2010, 11:07 pm

Firstly I will say I understand you being gone for so long, I knew that ya you was gone but still you would come back in due time. So it is good to see you back, and I am happy you got a girl to be with now. I am very happy for you right now *pats ya back* Now for me well nothing really happened, nearly ran away due to parents pushing me too far. But it failed due to police threats from parents, BUT other family members got them to be nicer to me and we are trying to get come family consoling and such.

Subject: Re: Let The Flames Begin... June 24th 2010, 2:07 am

That's great! Glad to hear everything is looking to be on the brighter side for you.

Subject: Re: Let The Flames Begin... June 24th 2010, 1:39 pm

Well, let's see . . . how far back do you want me to go?

2009 was not my friend but everyone here already knows about that.

I've had ongoing creative burnout issues stemming from a variety of sources . . . which reminds me, I still need coffee today . . . I'm trying to get a set of original novels written that hopefully will knock both Twilight *and* Harry Potter out of the freaking water. *grin* And if anyone could do it, this crop of Kids could.

I'm dealing with some severe allergy flareups caused by a huge cleaning jag in which we moved and cleaned behind items that hadn't moved location in some seven years. The reason for the cleaning jag? New furniture!

Yep, new bedframe with headboard and footboard, new mattress, new boxsprings, new dresser, new bedtables. And they all match! *grin* We're finally getting rid of the College Student Rainbow!

So yeah, haven't been as active as i would have liked.

Add to that I'm completely revamping my personal rp forum . . . well, life's been complicated.

Grizz

Subject: Re: Let The Flames Begin... June 24th 2010, 2:20 pm

oh good lord -.- I could write a flipping novel right about now

First, *twirly hugs Morph* Yeah, I never got to do that before, so guess what? Get used to it Razz

Now, I can't believe you would think anyone would be upset by your absence, unless they're missing the dikkins out of you....like MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ^^

Anyhoo.....

As you already know, it's been an insane several days with my son in the hospital and having TWO surgeries in one week
-.-

As for before that? I really don't have much "exciting" news. I work two jobs, or deal with MOUNTAINS of extended family drama O.O. Now, I won't get into the stress and depression of all of that, but I'm sure everyone knows to any extent what it's like. I just roll with the punches and count my own blessings in order to keep my sanity.

Otherwise, I'm online bee-bopping around and spreading my goody goody cheer cheers

Or deal the issues that ensue o.O
It's not easy sometimes. But I do what I can. I hide in here alot from it all >.> even though it's quiet here right now.... It's safe here.

Anyway Morph, thanks for the compliments and trusting me to help out! ^^ Let me know if there's anything else I could possibly do.

And that young lady is quite a lucky gal to have you!!! I'm so glad to hear things are working out for you!

*reists the urge to noogie* >>

Edit: Oh! Oh! Oh! Just read about site update!?!? *twitching* *wants to know* *bouncing in chair* New piccy?? New icons? >> new TOYS!? O.o *soft wicked giggles*

I've had too much caffine -.-

Subject: Re: Let The Flames Begin... June 25th 2010, 11:57 am

I'm still working on it, it'd probably be another week or so...I'm still working out some kinks on my ideas.

Subject: Re: Let The Flames Begin... June 25th 2010, 9:41 pm

You wanna know what I've been doing lately?

Let The Flames Begin... TnUCollage

That's what I've been doing lately. With Paint. And only Paint. By hand. Pixel by pixel drawing out the halo around the images. Yes, I know there's a pixel-wide halo remaining. *sigh* Maybe when I'm not frustrated out of my mind I'll go through and smooth it out with color-capture, but that's going to be several painstaking hours of work.

But yeah, that's what I've been doing.

Grizz

Subject: Re: Let The Flames Begin... June 26th 2010, 12:24 pm

I know how painstaking it is because I've done it before. But I have Photoshop CS4 now...

Subject: Re: Let The Flames Begin... June 27th 2010, 2:55 am

Wow, I wish I had photoshop. Or GIMP. Or something so I wasn't straining my eyes trying to carefully erase the halo around jpeg images using Paint. *sigh*

Let The Flames Begin... KHBannerBlue

In other news, there's that one as of today.

I'm looking for good pictures and ideas for collages for Final Fantasy. Any suggestions?

Grizz

Subject: Re: Let The Flames Begin... July 22nd 2010, 3:18 am

Bleh Gimp and Photoshop CS4 fail :3 (OMG KAZUYA LOGGED ON!? THAT TROLL!) Well I'm finally able to get on (AGAIN), cause my drill Sergeant (my cousin) finally got a job and I'm able to do stuff other then working out xD.

Let's see, in the time you've been gone . . .=D I'm joining the Air Force. *huzzah*